If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me.
Sing this song
Remind me that we’ll always have each other
When everything else is gone.
Oh, each other
When everything else is gone
Today our program coordinator/clinical coordinator/professor came to visit us at the hospital to see how we are doing and to meet the RN’s we work with (our preceptors). Three of us were in the recovery room so she was able to check on all three of us at once. We had a nice chat and she said something that kind of made things a little more real. We are done in less than a month. 29 days, to be exact. 4 days ago when I updated it didn’t seem so real. Now, it finally does. Wow. Talk about a huge burst of excitement and anxiety all at once!
Since my crazy post the other night I’ve been really trying to be positive and to really put myself out there at clinical so that I feel like I’m really learning. I’ve always done this, but I’m trying to do so even more. I’ve been trying to come up with more questions to ask and to get even more involved whenever I can and stay later each day. Today I tried to leave at a reasonable time because it was 100 degrees out and I needed to get home and check on Copper and make sure the window a/c I installed last night, BY MYSELF (with the help of Andrew via FaceTime) was working properly. I know they can shut off if they get too hot and I was worried Copper would be in a hot room/house panting and suffering. I still got in 9 hours and it was actually a really good day. It helps that my preceptor and the other nurses are so great with us! I am working again tomorrow and Saturday — gotta get in those hours! Then it’s back to Fort Collins because I have plannnnnns! Day date with Andrew Sunday ANNNNNND John Mayer concert at RED ROCKS on Tuesday with Jane!
Anyway, When I came home my a/c was working and my room felt pretty amazing. I was greeted by a happy Copper and he was NOT panting. Yay! A/C installation – success! I was also able to actually spend a bit of time making dinner since I got home at a decent hour (quinoa pasta with sun dried tomato Alfredo and steamed broccoli and cauliflower). The best part? I came home to a package from Andrew and in it was a CD he made me 🙂 He’s so sweet. I know I’ve been a huge pain in his butt lately trying to talk him into moving to San Diego in a couple months and he’s really been amazing putting up with me! (But I still am going to try to convince him!!) I think us moving would be a great boost to us as individuals and us as a couple. I really do. I hope he thinks so, too.
So, after my little melt down on Sunday night things have been better. I started reading my bible again that night. Back to 2 chapters a night. I know it’s not much, but it’s a start after taking a hiatus. I’m reading Joshua. Good ol’ Joshua. I got the idea to re-read Joshua and continue each book, in order, there after when I was driving to Casper on Sunday and heard Klove read Joshua 1:9 on the radio:
9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”
It’s the little things, sometimes, you know? Like being able to get Klove radio in my car even in the middle of Wyoming. Or like now, when one of the songs Andrew put on the CD he made me just came on and it’s Not Ashamed by Kristian Stanfill ~ and I’m reminded again how lucky I am. For God. For Andrew. For everything.
The power of Your love
Running through my heart
Shame has lost it’s grip on me
The glory of Your cross
Shining on my soul
Grace has got a hold on me
From the rooftops sing
I’m not ashamed of the One
Who saved my soul