Going through the motions

I’ve been in California since the second week of December. I’m over it! (But let’s be real, when am I not over California?) Don’t get me wrong, it is nice living with mom. Having better weather. Having a house with a backyard! The condo in Silverthorne is small. The snow rarely ever stops. And living at nearly 10,000 feet is downright exhausting. But Colorado healthcare is so much better than California healthcare. And as a nurse, that’s a really, really big deal.

I have 8 weeks left of this current nursing contract. March 14th cannot come soon enough. I’m exhausted. I’m disgusted. I’m in utter disbelief that a healthcare system could be so poorly run and crooked and horrible. I worked at my current facility two years ago. It was bad then, but the money was great. It’s way worse now, and the money is the best ever, but to be honest… it’s not worth it anymore. I can’t wait to get away from this corrupt facility and like my job again. I hate my job here. I hate being a nurse. I hate healthcare. And I hate how America thinks this is okay and normal and above all else, I hate, hate, hate for-profit hospitals who take advantage of their patients and their staff.

Did I mention I can’t wait for these remaining 8 weeks to be over with?

This very well be my last travel nurse assignment. On February 19th I finish my last Masters class and then comes my senior practicum and then by June– that’s it! I’ll have my Master’s in Nursing. The end goal seems so far away at this point but really I am only a few months away…

And then there is the wedding. May 2nd can’t come soon enough. We just want to be married! I hired a local wedding planner last week when I had a near breakdown when I realized that no, I can’t do it all. I can’t work full time, go to school full time & plan a wedding in a complicated location like Big Sur. I need someone local with years of experience to help me. So I found an amazing planner & she’s taking over to make my dream wedding come to life. I’m excited and nervous and ready to marry Ben!

And then there is that. Getting married. Where will we live? Where will we work? Where we we settle? Colorado? Who knows. We sure don’t.

A couple weeks ago I told Ben the scariest part about us is that we both love change so much. Yes, it is scary. It’s also exhilarating.

Life may be hard sometimes, but it is never boring.

So there is my update for now. Sorry it’s been two long months since the last one. Side note, the Chiefs are going to the Super Bowl!!!!!!!! See, there is always a silver lining 😉


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